A friend of mine asked me a question today that had
"who am I?" as part of it. And it got me thinking about how to answer
that question in the general first, and then the specific. And my answer starts
with, what you are.
You
are an animal. A member of the only species to ever build, and move into, its own zoo. And now you live in the finest cage that money can buy. You have the
urges and drives that make sense on the plains of Africa¹, most of which haven't
made any sense since the agricultural revolution.
The
story of The Fall, of being ejected from the Garden of Eden has, to my mind, a
kernel of truth. For the Christians the thing that explains all of our sinful
urges is original sin. That is why we lust and rage and whatever it is we
aren't supposed to do. And there was a time before that sin where we lived
in harmony with our surroundings and I guess didn't have sex or something. But
now we live in a fallen world where everyone is born flawed and disobedient
to gods will.
The
kernel of truth that I see² is based in evolutionary psychology. I think that there was a
time where we were more in tune with the world. When what we wanted to do was
the right thing to do much more often; when our desires did not get derailed by
gambling or record collecting; when ennui was obliterated by the bright light
of immediate mortality. I do not think that this was a better time to be a
human being. I do not think that it is a state to be venerated or sought out. But it
was a time when it made more sense to be a human being. And now the demands,
capacities, and luxuries that agriculture and industry have provided make
for a strange environment in which to be a tribal ape.
Evopsych
is a very tricky tool to use, and one should be very cautious when trying to
divine "what we should be like." There is no direct evidence to be
had, and as the video I linked will show you, even the basics of our
evolutionary path are up for grabs. But I don't think it’s risky to say that
the environment we find ourselves in does not comport to the basic psychology
that we developed evolutionarily. And I think that we would do well to
understand that it is not just religion that leads us into maladaptive
practices, but indeed our entire environment is at some level, mismatched with
us as animals.
Our
drives were instilled in us by evolution. Evolution prepared us for an environment
entirely different from the one we find ourselves in. I think that part of
religions role to date has been to make up stories that helped people cope with
this conflict. And I think that the same service can be rendered by secular
thought.
This
is an opportunity for secular ministry. Religion tells people why the
world is unfairly frustrating and what to do about it. In Christianity it is
the story of the fall and redemption in the afterlife. In Hinduism there is a
story about reincarnation and what to do in this life to improve your next one.
But science's story is that we evolved for one thing and now we do this new thing. We can look at human psychology and the world
around us and try to modify both, purely on rational grounds, towards an
increase of human flourishing. There is nothing morally wrong with us or with
the world, but there are endemic problems that can’t be fixed, only coped with.
You
are also an embodied autobiography. You have grown and changed in light of your
experiences and the interpretation of those experiences. There are the physical
ramifications of that; you might be healthy, and you might not be. You might have been born into a body that is
different than most, or have a body that was wracked by injury. What you
have eaten and how active you have been, what you have smoked and what you have
drank all have long lasting effects. And your day to day self is in part a
result of those actions and conditions. The point is
that you have a body and it matters what condition it is in.
You
also have a mind³. There are stories of all your experiences written in your brain. And which stories you tell, and how you tell them effects how you
see yourself and how you behave. There are stories but there are also the interpretations
of those stories. What happened to you is
what happened to you. But how you feel about it and how you choose to talk
about it are variable. A story that ends with a trauma is a sad story. A story
that ends with overcoming that trauma is uplifting. And I know, from personal experience
that you can change who you are by changing how you interpret the autobiography
that you tell yourself.
Some
of us were badly mistreated; others taught unhealthy ways to look at the world.
Some lucky ones among us must have been treated well and are perfectly adjusted,
but I have never met one. And if you are systemically unhappy you should know
there are ways out of that unhappiness. I used to give up on people. I used to
look at the misbegotten and think “there’s no hope for that one.” But I have
seen the hopeless thrive, in time and with help. So much of what we think of
people is determined by what sample we use. I think we need to wait until a person is dead
to judge their life. To do otherwise is to condemn the redeemable, or to canonize
the fallible.
So
this is what you are. You are a social ape that lives in the zoo that he built; an
ape whose life history, and its key to interpretation, are engraved on his body
and mind.
¹I
have no idea what to make of this video.
²This
idea I've gotten most clearly from this book, which is fantastic for other reasons that I
should write about.
³I
might at some point try and explain my view vis-à-vis mind versus brain versus
body but now is not the time